I am too. Those three words launch an idyllic journey through the sixties as a young child whose promise is interrupted, coinciding with the end of the decade. Paul decides to become "someone else" to cope with the loss, spending the end of the sixties drinking scotch in the corner as a four-year-old "fish".

The seventies are largely spent on a sledding hill, meeting up with a cast of famous characters in his mind..Eventually, all memory of the sixties is lost.

He drops out in the eighties, without actually quitting school--or life. He has to slowly rebuild his future, having essentially failed his childhood.

Life gets gradually darker, with a growing belief that God may have selected him to be a biblical Object of Wrath and Destruction.

Romans 9:22–What if God, desiring to show his wrath and to make known his power, has endured with much patience vessels of wrath prepared for destruction…

Baby you can Drive My Car, Yes I’m going to be a star.–October 14th, 1965

I’m a writer who spent 15 mentally ill years writing a book about the whole thing (some years, I couldn’t write anything).